Hi Friend,
It has been a long while since my feelings were written down. So therefore I truly do not know where to start! You see, things are getting bad again. That is scary enough thought. I probably wont ever disclose who I am to whoever finds this blog – so that will help me unravel these manic feelings – that keep returning. I can see that revealing too much could be an issue for those I will be describing or writing about. So therefore anyone mentioned will be anonymised.
The main things documented here will be my mood and my feelings / just so I can keep track of how I feel on a day to day or so so basis.
So today is the 15th July 2019 – I am listening to the song No Matter What by Calum Scott – which is making me realise how beautiful some lyrics are!
My mind is going 100mph and its really hard to process information but I keep trying. Yesterday was a tough one where my disordered eating brain took control – I probably consumed less than 1000kcal. Getting out of this hole again will be a struggle. Which frankly I do not want to do again. Everyone that knows me at the moment and knows I’m struggling is telling me to keep pushing but I really do not have the energy for that. I want to give up, I feel like its time.
Thanks for listening friend, speak soon
Yours,
-That Confused Boy
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