Hi Friend,
It has been a couple of days, a lot has changed – some for the better.
I know I said I would keep this blog anon. And for the most part it still is. I just wanted to update and post, just because I can. So I can see where my head is at right now.
Some of them might even see this post. So hey! 😉
Things have been surprisingly good today, mostly because I have compartmentalised my thoughts and actions into a different section of my brain. I have thoroughly enjoyed today. I have spent time outside, I have got my testosterone jab, got on a ton of busses and I received my own random act of crazy – and dyed my hair! It is blue, and lovely!
Yes I had a down moment but it took one conversation, one replayable conversation too, and the thoughts of my future and plans I want to achieve. Battling one negative thought at a time may be the winning motion right now. Yes it may not work all the time, but I have to at least try!
As scary as opening up about my feelings was, I seriously think it was worth the agony and overthinking my brain produced. Plus a few anxiety attacks that threw themselves in, but I survived.
Thanks to the main 5 in my life – which only like 3 of you will see but still! I truly do owe you all a hug and a thank you! My saving grace is all of you. I have a mental picture of you all in my head! I love you all truly!
Now to chase the rainbow this weekend.
Yours,
-That Confused Boy
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